my fiance is asleep next to me, & im up silently crying tears streaming down my face. I can't help…

my fiance is asleep next to me, & im up silently crying tears streaming down my face. I can't help but think why is this happening to us? why would God put us here now? idk how I'm supposed to deal with this. my heart is broken & the hurt seems to be getting stronger as the day comes closer I'll be saying goodbye to my fiances cuddles for 2 years :'(