20 Years Old Soon2B 21 :)
Pregnant With My Second Baby<3
5 Month Old BabyBoyy Ricardo Yahlijah Hernandez &
Engaged 2 a Wonderful Pain In My Ass lol

my fiance is asleep next to me, & im up silently crying tears streaming down my face. I can't help but think why is this happening to us? why would God put us here now? idk how I'm supposed to deal with this. my heart is broken & the hurt seems to be getting stronger as the day comes closer I'll be saying goodbye to my fiances cuddles for 2 years :'(

this may sound racist aha but what is a "white people dinner" I don't know any other way to put it I honestly can't remember any of the recipes growing up I've eaten mexican food for too long aha I wanna make a dinner tonight that's basically what I would eat growing up so they can taste my foods since I'm always tasting theirs. them being my in laws. so far I've only made appetizers cause that's all I can think of lol

I just need to vent on how FUCKED UP our "justice system" is...
My fiance has a really bad record as a MINOR.. Nothing extremely crazy just stupid stuff. & got in trouble 1 more time at 18 years old. the court system used his record as a minor against him & turned one of his charges as a MINOR (15 yrs old) into an ADULT Strike & now had to take another strike & serve 2 years in prison on a higher security level because of his "prison prior" which he served in juvenile hall for a few days!! so h...

so some of you may know my fiance has been battling a court case for a little while from his past. & finally had to sign a deal for 2 years in prison.. he has to turn himself in March 15.. my heart is shattered, & I don't know what to do. I'm soo scared. :( he won't even be their for the birth of our daughter :(

Ughhh I have so much cramps in this pregnancy! :( I just wanna go ONE day without pain :/

Haven't Taken a Selfiee In Soo LONGGG! Lol Feels Kinda Funny Never Have The Time Anymore But Needed 2 Make Myself Feel Pretty...

I took a shower last night & shaved and everything. had it in my head I would get all ready & spend some time with my sons dad considering he has court tomorrow & might be taken to prison for 2 years...
but he got ready & went out with his friends instead.. idk why I keep lying to myself. things will never be different.

Sad That I Feel That I Need To Start Pushing Myself Away From My Fiance & Give Up On The Whole Things Will Get Better Idea. :/

My Sons Temperature 100.2 & I've Given Him Motrin An Hour Ago.. Should I Take Him To The ER? He's 5 Months Old..

My Son Is Five Months & Shakes His Head Side2 Side Over & Over Now What Is This? Lol