I took a shower last night & shaved and everything. had it in my head I would get all ready & spend…

I took a shower last night & shaved and everything. had it in my head I would get all ready & spend some time with my sons dad considering he has court tomorrow & might be taken to prison for 2 years...

but he got ready & went out with his friends instead.. idk why I keep lying to myself. things will never be different.