Really depressed right now....cant stop crying. I dont know how to be without my baby being home…

Really depressed right now....cant stop crying. I dont know how to be without my baby being home yet...every time I get my hopes up for something in regard to the baby, it seems like theres a setback. I know its not his fault, I am just dying without him with me...and now that I might be sick, I might have to go days without seeing him. Nothing seems fair right now! I want to scream! I feel like we have had the worst year ever and it doesn't seem go be improving by much as of yet.. My baby is the hugest blessing ever, I just want him home