Literally hate how I pay the cable bill, its in my name, and I never get to watch it?? Like I have…

Literally hate how I pay the cable bill, its in my name, and I never get to watch it?? Like I have to make an appointment to watch my own TV.? Sorry this is something stupid to be mad about but I'm all emotional and crazy today I cried earlier and now I'm just getting irritated about everything. Also so sick and tired of constantly being bitched at for every fucking thing weather I do it or not. Hopefully get the call this week to move in. Fingers crossed.