Little one is fast on but I'm just laid here awake thinking how blessed and lucky I am to have her…

Little one is fast on but I'm just laid here awake thinking how blessed and lucky I am to have her here with me. I remember the day that I was told I would struggle to conceive and the pain I felt when I had miscarriages. I thought this day would never come and I've never felt so happy. My family and my partner's family doubted us. They thought we wouldn't cope because we're young but now they're proud of how well we're doing and how natural it's coming to us. I'm so proud of myself for having a natural birth too since I gave up with the gas and air and only used it properly when having my stitches😂 I used to love to go out to parties and get drunk and be irresponsible. I used to be out with friends all the time when I wasn't working getting up to all sorts. Now I'm not even bothered about seeing those people again. I have mothers the same age as me on Facebook that were out round town the weekend after giving birth and every weekend after that like a ritual. I can't think how they can do it, I don't even like leaving her to have a bath! My partner asked me if I wanted a can of my favourite cider when he did some shopping and it didn't appeal to me in the slightest. Now not many 18/19 year olds can say that😂