Random . & I know there are a lot of stories out here that are worse than mine . But , sharing my…

Random . & I know there are a lot of stories out here that are worse than mine . But , sharing my story is one thing that I can share with you guys . Well most of you . Welp, at 16 years old , I was pregnant with my first child . Failing out of school . Skipping classes with my child's father , planning false hope for each other & false forevers. This story gets weird , because me & my child's father weren't together when I got pregnant. He actually cheated on his gf at the time with me . At the time I didn't feel bad about it because I was 16 , young & dumb , felt like he was the only guy in my life that I needed to complete me . I missed periods , after period , after period & until about 6 months later it was clear that I was pregnant . I got 0 prenatal care until about 25 weeks in . Never got a chance to celebrate, have a baby shower or anything . It was all just a complete blurr. My son is almost 7 years old & healthy btw :) about a year ago . I got pregnant again . Found out early on , at 23 years old , I'm a lot brighter in knowing how to detect pregnancy lol . That pregnancy ended at 7 weeks because I decided that I did not want that father at that time to be in my life anymore . He wasn't serious about me & he played me 101% of the time we talked . I refused to go through that again . I couldn't be a single mom of two ... So as of July 28th , 2014 , I had ended my pregnancy. I felt horrible after my decision. I was depressed . I cried 95% of the time . I lost interest in school & I had insomnia for months . I regretted my decision to do that to my baby ... After a year I finally come to terms with it . Knowing how much of a relief it was to not have a child by such a complete jerk . 10 Months later I meet my boyfriend who I am with now . & we've been together for only 8 months , but I got pregnant after 5 months of dating . Do I regret it or my baby ? No . Sometimes the person you have a baby by can definitely make a difference on your life . I'm pregnant now & I cannot wait ! To hold my precious angel ! I am completely in love with the father of my child & my baby. If I have offended anyone with this post I dearly apologize or not . You just kinna have to be in my shoes to understand a little bit more ...