so im not really sure where to start with this but i kinda need to get it out so its not bubbling inside of me...

so my parents passed away so pretty much my whole life ive lived with my grandparents 2 aunts 2 cousins and my brother and sister. all of the "adults" growing up.. no matter how much they deny it.. chose favorites. and ive kinda been stuck alone bc i was closer to my mom.. the 2 years she was around so i dont really remember it. my brother is the baby so my grandmother adores him and my 2 cousins. and my aunt prettymuch raised my sister so she gets specialtreatment.. so like i said i got the shit end of the stick. my sister had a baby 5 months before i did. they gave her the biggest room in the house. i had to go to the basement. then when my nephew came my brother went down to the basement( us 3 shared the room my sister has now) when i couldnt move alot bc i was really pregnant they decided to give me half the living room. when they realized it wouldnt work out my grandmother still to this day gives me shit bc now she has no living room. and im litterally going around picking up things people leave laying around and while im sleeping people come and sit in here and talk bc they say its the living room and i have to deal with it. i get no privacy which is a big reason why i am not breastfeeding. my family is cuban so they are loud and obnoxious.

so main reason for this long post is my grandma and aunt refused to let my sister put her son in daycare until hes over a year old. my daughter is just about 3 months and i told my aunt that ill probably have to put her in day care bc of the tanf meetings i have to go to and stuff and she litterally said yeah you should do that.

i feel like it shouldnt bother me because im an adult. but this is supposed to be my family. ive dealt with depression and ive been pushing myself away from them and they always bitch and say that they love me and all this bullshit but then they come around treating me like shit.