depression is hitting me hard tonight. I feel like a POS mother honestly I stay negative toward myself all time. and I'm…

exactly and I don't blame you one bit my dad is a mean, nasty drunk he always beat on me my stepsister and my stepmom but he tries contacting Me all the time and I do nothing but cry cause I love my dad I just can't stand his actions ! As for my mom she's addicted to tabs and has been doing them for ten years straight EVERYDAY she manic depressive bipolar 3 which also isn't good and drinks four bottles of wild Irish rose and always threatens me stole and sold half my clothes I literally have three pairs of pants to my name. but yet I still feel baby deserves to see them not alone of course cause ain't no telling what they would do to my poor baby you think you would have some common sense parents but noo and I just don't want to be the same person I was around them around my son cause me and my dad fist fought and the first night I stayed with my mom she was wasted and told Me she hated me and wanted nothing to do with me so we started fighting too :( why can't I just sink that in my brain there not good people so why even try :( @krstokes2016

my dad aint gonna see my daughter at all and other family gotta show they can be away from drinkin and other stuff before they can come around her

Just keep ya head up mama! you got this

my family will not see my baby until I see fit . I refuse to have my child around all that negativity and pain like I was!

thank y'all so much , I tried to sleep it off thinking it would help . those were words I definitely needed to hear . you are right its the ones we love the most that hurt us . I hate feeling like that cause my baby boy is my world he means absolutely everything to me . I just want him to know he always has me to talk to no matter what all judgment aside. I'm just debating on keeping my son around my family or not I know its best not to but I feel so bad for them cause I feel they have the right to see him when they really don't . ugh life is soooo hard @krstokes2016 @tearbearm072016

@mommy.to.be.041016, i suffer from depression also...mental breaks, thinkin bout adoption for my girl for fear of not bein able, thinkin im not good enough, people treatin dirt on their shoes better then me...its tough i know but you have to try to stay positive and k ow that what people say to you dont matter. its what you know about yourself and screw the rest the negative bs. if you ever need to vent just write me. from the sounds of it you are a great momma already cuz you worry for your childs best and would do anything for him. just try to regroup and ground yourself back to a level state of mind and like i said if you ever need to ill try to help or even just be someone to vent to :) stay strong momma

baby girl please don't feel the way you do or be afraid to soak about it! My mom has put me down almost my entire life calling me a whore, slut, etc. and when she found out that is pregnant and I told her she wasn't going to be in my childs life she did it again she even tried fighting me .... she could've hurt my baby... :( told me I was an uneducated bitch , fuck my child, and a hefer...

I'm telling u this to say that, a lot of times its the people we expect to love us the most. that hurt us the most. What doesn't kill u only makes you stronger and you are creating a miracle in the midst of your battle hunny. There are so many women who pray to just get a positive on a pregnancy test just to have hope and you are already 32 weeks? You're doing great hun ! Your race is almost over and NOBODY will ever love your baby the way that you do and will once you see their face! You got this Mommy and you have to be strong for you when nobody else is!!

thank you that helped alot I'm tryin so hard not to bust for the sake of my baby I don't want him feeling what im feeling right now cause I don't want my baby to hate me one day I know what it feels like to be hated on by your own parents and its put me down so bad I have bad panic attacks while pregnant giving chance after to chance to people who hurt me the most, lie, and steal .. ughh I wish this feeling would stop but I never hear the end of its always something new everyday and it breaks me down cause no parent should ever hurt their child this much .. I just don't wanna keep continuing to try giving a chance to people who clearly don't deserve it but I'm to soft hearted and I love my family to death but the way they put me down all the time hurts and makes me feel I'll never be good enough for anything they even tried getting me to break up with the love of my life who is the father of my child and the one I wanna marry seriously every time I see mommy and daddy with their baby I tear up cause I really Want that for my son but idk how I'll react to it and it scares me cause I have a hard time trying to love the wrong people and I don't want him to ever see me as the wrong person. sorry for the rant once again :'( @kreshy

And you shouldn't hold this in. Express yourself. This is a very interesting time for you. Take time and sort things out for yourself. Don't think about your family or what anyone has said to you. No one can make a decision for you or tell you about how good of a mother you will be. I don't know your situation, but you know what's really going on and what's best. Right now, you need to be selfish with your thoughts and feelings. Don't let anyone take away your joy and happiness because of their opinion.

thank you I stay depressed I just don't Like expressing it at all and it makes me think nothing but negative things I just don't think he will have it good with me as well as he would with someone who could really take really good care of him :( I just don't feel good enough for my baby I feel like he deserves better and it makes me cry about thinking about it all the time my poor baby :'( im doing the best I can but everyone puts me down especially my family cause they don't accept me having a little one and it breaks my heart and it makes me feel not good enough sorry for the rant but I can't hold it in anymore I've had one to many emotional break downs lord knows I love this little man inside of me but idk :( being depressed sucks cause I don't talk to anyone about this stuff but im tired of holding it back I get to angry holding it in sorry for the rant y'all :( @kreshy

I know it can be hard. Especially when you try your best to change your thoughts but your hormones take over. But please don't think this way. I know I don't know you and all, but Id say you are doing a good job. You seem to love you baby so much already. You are taken care of yourself and it seems your child is doing well and thriving! (your profile said you are 32 weeks!) Keep your head up, stay strong, and stay as positive as you can, mama!

I'm trying thank you @mybabymylife

I'm going thru the same thing, just be strong, & try to stay happy I know its hard