I have a white Orchid that I got for my birthday (in November) and ever since I miscarried in Dec.…

I have a white Orchid that I got for my birthday (in November) and ever since I miscarried in Dec. I've kind made it into a symbol for our lost baby and it's just recently started losing a few flowers and looks like its dying no matter what I do and it's making me so sad and it's probably a stupid thing but I can't help but feel like I'm losing that too.