I feel like I've vented too much about this to my close friends and my husband. we have a conversation regarding it quite often as we are trying to move on and be stronger. but I'm still having a very hard time with my insecurities... he cheated on me in December ad in talking/sexting (no pictures). he did however go to her place but they only kissed once. it was his first time and he has some lame ass excuses. but he has earned trust back and he has proven me and this baby are what he truly wants (I put his ass through hell for me to stay). I just still feel so insecure I mean I'm almost 32wks. I don't feel like he desires me sexually anymore and I don't really desire sex because I feel so shitty about myself. he doesn't touch me like he use to or try to make me or show me I'm beautiful. I know he is scared to have sex because it's painful for me but it was getting better until that situation. we had sex once since I found out he was doing that. and now I honestly don't know when we will ever have sex again. I don't know I'm just so absolutely insecure and the one person who made that better has no given me reasons to doubt myself. I feel like our marriage is in a better place as in one of those we had to hit rock bottom before we could come out on top things. but intimacy wise not so much. I feel like he's has more important things to do than reassure me every 5 minutes that I'm still sexy or that he still wants me sexually.... i just wish he would touch me and make me believe again that I'm beautiful like he says. I've tried talking to him about it but it never seems to stick.