I just feel so depressed tonight. I let my baby cry in his crib tonight. I want him to go to sleep…

I just feel so depressed tonight. I let my baby cry in his crib tonight. I want him to go to sleep on his own. His crib is right next to me and I mean so close that he can feel me touch him. He was so upset with me. He wouldn't even let me put my hand on him to cheer him up. I just started crying. After more than 20 minutes I picked him up and rocked him. I just want him to do it on his own but I don't want to hurt his feelings.