not sure why i want another baby so bad, but when i take a pregnancy test & it comes out negative, i…

not sure why i want another baby so bad, but when i take a pregnancy test & it comes out negative, i get pretty upset.

we're not trying to have a baby, but when i start feeling weird/pregnant i get excited,

then i completely shut down when i find out i'm not. i just took a test a while ago & i'm a little bummed that i don't have a friend to talk to about it that won't sit here & tell me "well you don't need another baby." can't someone just try to uplift my vibe instead of thinking i'm stupid for wanting a baby so soon...