today has been a roller coaster. breast feeding is literally draining me. I'm trying to not give in.…

today has been a roller coaster.

breast feeding is literally draining me. I'm trying to not give in. im not dissing any mommies by the way. I read of you get through the first few weeks it gets easier. I'm in this weird should I just pump my life away or try and continue exclusively breast feeding with no bottle. I miss my bf too much also. n he just told me it might be 6 months Now till I could see him. I just wanna curl in a ball and cry. I don't want to get post partum depression since I did have depression during pregnancy . ooo poops.