I feel so lonely. This mess is killing me from the inside. I can't physically or mentally stand the…

I feel so lonely. This mess is killing me from the inside. I can't physically or mentally stand the tension that I feel when we speak. Things just aren't right. I'm supposed to be the one you can't go a day without talking to. I can't take this. I want you home but I'm so afraid that my thoughts have led me astray..!😭😭