This is the only time I'll ever post about this typer of personal stuff anywhere online. But has anyone else struggled with depression and anxiety more once they've gotten pregnant. I've had depression and anxiety my entire life, I was diagnosed at age 11. but since I've gotten pregnant it's just gotten alot worse. they want to put me on medication but I refuse because me and my mother read up on how most antidepressants cause autism in babies. it's just getting really hard because everyone around me knows and they're all starting to blame themselves and that's not doing anything but making me feel bad, and altogether making it worse? Idk what I'm asking for but help?
I have been depressed my whole life. Between my childhood and adulthood not being that much better, but I have had my good days and bad days. They have not found a medication that I can take or have a reaction to. And being pregnant, it gets worse. I'm always trying to push my husband away thinking he's gonna leave me anyway at some point. And I have been know to mentally hurt my son with things I have said. I want to be better and I tell myself every day that today is not a day to be down. and I tell myself that every day and no it don't always work but I know I have 2 kids counting on me and another one on the way.
Do you do anything for it? I mean idk. I know why I am, but being depressed doesn't help me make it change.
I do that to my boyfriend all the time sadly.. He blames himself for me being depressed. and its not his fault at all. It's the situation we've been thrown into. we're homeless and jobless with no car and have been couch hopping for the last three months. It's hard to get a job and keep one with no car especially in the winter in northern Minnesota. even if you have a car around here in the winter, sometimes they don't start. and I'm pregnant, with hip and back problems, it's not safe for me to be walking in the winter.