I had my son august 12,2015 by emergency c section. I had a lot of problems during my pregnancy with…

I had my son august 12,2015 by emergency c section. I had a lot of problems during my pregnancy with him and prior to him In 2012 I had an ectopic pregnancy where the baby ruptured through my tubes at 11 weeks and it almost killed me. so here I am pregnant again, currently 12 weeks and I want so bad to deliver vaginally but there is no way I can. due to my c section being so recent, my hemoraging disorder, and my pregnancy already being high risk. ( he's put me on bed rest already due to a severe subchronic hemorage that completely surrounded the gestational sac, he told me it would be a miracle if it didn't cause me to miscarry due to the amount of blood I was losing) I guess I'm really just complaining but I'm just so upset. I want so bad to experience a vaginal delivery. sorry for my rant...