Well it's been a rough but amazing week in my life. I was induced on Monday, delivered at 1:17 am on Tuesday, went home…

Well it's been a rough but amazing week in my life. I was induced on Monday, delivered at 1:17 am on Tuesday, went home on wednesday. They didn't do a very good job with my epidural and I ended up with a spinal headache that was making it almost impossible to take care of my new baby. On top of that my baby's jaundice got worse and they had to admit him overnight to be under the lights for 12 hours, and I was also admitted to the hospital for a spinal patch to get rid of the headache. They separated me from my newborn and he was already having trouble latching to my breast so while he was being breast fed now he won't latch onto my breasts at all. It's the most depressing feeling, I hate that I have to pump my milk and bottle feed... He's only 5 days old so I'm hoping I can reverse it so he will drink from my breasts. I hope no one else has to go through this after they deliver.... But I'm trying to stay positive!

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?

i hope i have my baby this week...or in a couple of years...if he wants to come out...it's whatever he wants 😓

I had to share this picture of Raptor! He is still doing amazing! He has lost a little bit of weight but that's…

I had to share this picture of Raptor! He is still doing amazing! He has lost a little bit of weight but that's expected! Yesterday was our second time trying to breast feed and he latched and sucked!!! It was so amazing and I am so proud of him!

Starting TWW. Anyone else?

Starting TWW. Anyone else? I had a stillborn daughter at 38 weeks this passed Nov. This is my second month ttc. (Last month we only tried for like two weeks though). My last and only pregnancy, I got pregnant the first month of ttc so I hope it's quick this time again.

Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my…

Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?