I am very close, yet very distant from my friends with bipolar. it's tough because of the depession aspect that causes us to distance ourselves...

pick your battles is something I have learned is so important... I'm talkin every day I say that to myself. it's nice to be reminded by someone else too!

*suffers... I made it seem like he's gone. he's not :) I have bipolar and depression so it's a bit of a test even for myself at times @zoocourtmama

That's what I've been doing.. Growing up and stuff my dad was my biggest supporter because he suffered from manic depression and he understood. he always calmed me down and still to this day does.. when I get pissed I can always head him say, "don't sweat the small stuff. pick your battles!" & it really helps..

Sounds like you're doing great with the caffeine intake! some people don't know when to quit... I understand that! if you felt remorse after means you didn't go manic so that's good!!! I think you'll be alright after thinking it through & with your bf's support :) she'll run her mouth... but the words roll off your back

@zoocourtmama,

I am just doing a little caffeine a day rather than having it in EVERY drink as I was before.. I was a soda junkie lol. but yes, you're right. I only had one bad episode and that was on my boyfriends mother. honestly I felt terrible afterwards but she just pokes and pokes and instigates then when I flip, she's the victim. it's hard but I've learned to ignore her. my boyfriend has really been so much help. I hated that happened because it puts him in a bad place.

AWW! didn't mean to stir up tears! remind yourself that every single person has a different mind & different body... try your hardest to ignore others. I am all over the place myself... BUT I have not truly flipped out once. I'm really proud of myself. I hope you can see that you've done really well despite everything too. BTW... a serving of caffeine every day for a little while is okay, (I read all my Dr handouts!) caffeine withdrawal is HORRIBLE. ween yourself off if you want

Awe that made me cry thanks so muxh @zoocourtmama .. so glad someone understands. everyone says I'm being over dramatic it's just my hormones but it is so much more than that. I hate it. some days I am fine other days I don't wanna leave my room.

I sometimes feel isolated because of the lack of medication & just want you to know... you're NOT alone. I've had a few other mom's reach out to me on here that also have bipolar & although it's tough... it's reassuring to know that WE CAN OVERCOME.

God you're a warrior for quitting all of those things... I can relate a lot... my bf smokes & vapes. I hate it, but it used to make me sick! Really awesome that your bf slowed down for you & baby's health!

Oh okay haha I've been sitting here trying to figure out what it meant so I figured I would just ask @babynumber1

@babyross,

significant other :)

Just wondering what does SO mean?

My boyfriend has been very helpful and understanding. the day I found out I quit smoking cigs, weed and I quit my bipolar medicine so not only were my hormones out of wack but I was also being a super bitch quitting all cold turkey.. thank God he loves me! lol. he's the best.. I keep telling him to quit smoking and he really has slowed down so I give him credit for that!

yes me!!! i could not go without them!!! now don't think about them @ all... my bf thinks I'm just being mean to him cause i don't like him and that's an excuse from him to leave me alone.. smh.

mind* not miss

I don't miss the smell of light menthol because that's what I smoked but if I snell a full flavor.. oh god

all though I can smell the difference in cigarettes, Marlboro and Camel I mean

I used to smoke and quit when I found out my SO still smokes and for the first two trimesters I loved the smell but for my last I've hated it!

he does on and off and tries to hide it from me. hello I can smell it on him when he walks in the door and he smells like garbage and metal. it makes me sick. he's trying to quit sorta. I quit the day I got pregnant ..cold turkey and I cannot stand the smell.

mine does and they stink so bad.

Yes! Jeremy (my SO) will get upset with me because I make him go wash his hands and put his jacket in the closet so I don't have to smell it.. he doesn't understand how I can go from smoking all the time to now completely hating the though of it.. We are both first timers so he is still learning how pregnancy works.. so am I really lol.

I did for years to but once I found out I was pregnant I quit right away! I'm right there with you, my fiancé will come in after I cig and it makes me gag I hate it