My baby shower is today. Doesn't feel real. Where did the time go? We are still looking for a place…

My baby shower is today. Doesn't feel real. Where did the time go? We are still looking for a place to live and it looks like I'll have to subject myself to living in this moldy environment until my W2's come in and we can get our tax money. I'm anxious and feeling very out of sorts about it all. I just don't want to be moving with a newborn and a fresh post partum body. I want to be settled during my very short maternity leave.

Most importantly, I don't want to feel anxious today. I just want to enjoy it.