starting to feel hopeless and super depressed to the point where i dont want to do anything or be…

starting to feel hopeless and super depressed to the point where i dont want to do anything or be around anyone. derek has destroyed my hopes for us to work on us. its nothing like getting only 3 hrs of sleep because he wants to make you feel like shit till 1am and you just dont want to look at him or talk to him or even be near him or hell touch him on accident so you sleep on the floor because your nephew is still sick and snoring so loud that you dont even care if you sleep on the floor. i dont get it. what did i do to deserve this..... im having a baby with a complete asshole and he makes me feel completely worthless.