I've been really depressed. I have tried ignoring it. I have tried to force myself to feel better. 😧…

I've been really depressed.

I have tried ignoring it.

I have tried to force myself to feel better.

😧

But it isn't working. I feel so miserable. I feel like I want to just sleep and sleep and sleep.

I can't just fake my way to feeling better. But now I don't know what to do.

My life is an absolute mess right now. I feel like no matter what I try to do to move it a step forward something shoves me 5 steps back. I can't get ahead.

I don't have the energy or the will to do anything. But I know that I have to force myself because my fiance is really struggling and he can't take care of us right now so I have no choice. But I don't know how to cope. I'm forcing myself to take care of us but I feel like it's making me resent him and that's wrong too. I need something to give.

I feel like I absolutely cannot take anymore. I can't keep going like this. But I have no choice.

😢

but on the other hand I have our beautiful daughter. I love her so much more than I have ever loved myself. she is the single most perfect human being I have ever seen. I can't think of a thing I won't do for her. and then I feel so selfish for being depressed. but I still can't change it. but I know it's wrong