After our time in the nicu my supply took such a huge hit and as his tummy grew the struggle to pump and keep up with his eating schedule without the stimulation from latching and the stress from just worrying about my little guy , my supply dwindled away to nothing and the ratio of my milk to formula got smaller and smaller. Once we got home I was struggling to express any milk at all. At my checkup for birth control with my Obgyn told me about her experience breastfeeding with her preemie and that it was okay for me to quit killing myself over it. I gave him what I could for the first two months and that while breast milk is great formula isn't poison . in fact formula even has some things such as vitamin D and breast milk doesn't. For a while I felt so guilty every time I cracked open a can of enfamil , or I worried what people thought in public when I made him a bottle in public. Now though , my little guy is almost three months old and he is growing perfectly and I have so much more time with him to enjoy learning him and being his mommy instead of constantly sitting in the corner in my room trying to pump every bit of milk I could out of my breast while my husband catered to our sons needs ❤ formula feeding is beautiful too.