I'm feeling really down. I live with my boyfriend along with my two boys. Mind you I left what I had of 10years. No one telling me where to put shit, or asking me a milllion questions. Now that I'm pregnant I haven't been able to work due to being so sick and having a high risk pregnancy. I'm just sad and upset that ib always have to ask for what I want or need. I don't feel like anything is mines to call my own. I don't feel my boys are even happy. I love him dearly but I feel like he controls everything and I hate it. It makes me want to get a job anyways and by the things I'd love to get for my new baby and boys. I miss being on my own. I miss my peace and quiet. I miss just being me in my own comfort zone. I almost feel like moving out once I start looking for my own and stuff. another thing that pisses me off is that( TMI) I didn't mind pleasing him in the shower the other day however would have been nice to get some oral in return. Nope nothing. he even made a comment after I was done that we were not finished , again nothing happened. He never eats me out and I miss that my ex use to do it all the time cus he enjoyed it. now I barely get it. makes me draw to woman. makes me want to feel the sensual touch of a woman.... ughhhh sorry for my frustration. hope someone understands😥😡😑😞😭
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Welp if it makes y’all feel better , I was hoping my own baby didn’t come out ugly because my baby daddy be looking ugly to me sometimes .
Rant
My SO has been rude a lot ever since I've gotten pregnant...he said he doesn't care about my pregnancy, he doesn't even take one day off from work just ONE to come to at least one ultra sound appointment. I mean he's always making sure I'm fed, he lets use the heating pad, and even apologized to saying he doesn't care. He can mess with me all day but when I want to join and play around he gives me an attitude. He just makes me feel like s*** at times. He's a great fiancé don't get me wro...
My 5 year old brother just got circumcised due to all the infections he kept on getting & seeing him in so much pain not being able to walk makes me glad I got my son circumcised as a newborn & planning on doing the same with my second baby.
i finally let him do it
I finally let DF throw away my foundations. He says I look better without it. He said he hates seeing me cover my face with make up when I can just wear mascara and eyeliner. He says it makes me look fake and he said he's not saying it to be mean, hes saying it because he cares. Im glad he's real with me. He says I have natural beauty. He says he doesn't like it when I dye my hair or wear make up because he loves my natural beauty. I know some girls feel as though that t...
hope everything gets better for u love ❤😘