I'm feeling really down. I live with my boyfriend along with my two boys. Mind you I left what I had of 10years. No one telling me where to put shit, or asking me a milllion questions. Now that I'm pregnant I haven't been able to work due to being so sick and having a high risk pregnancy. I'm just sad and upset that ib always have to ask for what I want or need. I don't feel like anything is mines to call my own. I don't feel my boys are even happy. I love him dearly but I feel like he controls everything and I hate it. It makes me want to get a job anyways and by the things I'd love to get for my new baby and boys. I miss being on my own. I miss my peace and quiet. I miss just being me in my own comfort zone. I almost feel like moving out once I start looking for my own and stuff. another thing that pisses me off is that( TMI) I didn't mind pleasing him in the shower the other day however would have been nice to get some oral in return. Nope nothing. he even made a comment after I was done that we were not finished , again nothing happened. He never eats me out and I miss that my ex use to do it all the time cus he enjoyed it. now I barely get it. makes me draw to woman. makes me want to feel the sensual touch of a woman.... ughhhh sorry for my frustration. hope someone understands😥😡😑😞😭