if they don't let me have this baby tonight, I'm going to fucking lose it. I've been at these damn…

if they don't let me have this baby tonight, I'm going to fucking lose it. I've been at these damn doctors everyday for weeks and they keep telling me tomorrow might be the day, over and over again. if they tell me no today, I'm done. I'm going home and just going to wait till it happens. I had a blood pressure of 158/100 and they left me like that for hours. & now they are CONSIDERING letting me have her today. it's just time to have her done with this blood pressure bullshit.