I was sooooo ready to say good bye to 2015. My worst year in life:0( but I can't help but fear 2016. I thought I would be overly excited and ready to welcome 2016 but found myself sleeping by 9pm. I didn't even want to think about it. I can not help but think "I can't handle another year like 2015." Since January 1st it started off bad. From arguing (jan1st), bf cheating, losing my job of 4yrs, depression, miscarriage on my suppose to be wedding day, confused about alot of things, bd leaving one day without saying a word and taking everything with him, surprise pregnancy, incurable std, alone, threatening miscarriage (3x), broke, my kids being abused,ex facing jail time, watching my kids going through psycho trauma and revictimized. I fear what 2016 has for me even though I pray that it's peace. Spear me this year I beg of you:'0( idk what I did in the past to deserve such a year or this or why the devil is working so hard to see me and mine suffer but I apologize for whatever I did. You won. Please not this year:'0(