Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Please help!

My doctor is trying to induce me before 40 weeks because she's going to be off on my due date and says my placenta is starting to look old. How do I get labor started?? I don't want to be induced for no reason and I'm thinking I won't have a choice. Please help. What do I do to get things going?

Wednesday morning I go for my 12 week ultrasound. Can I see your pics mommas to get excited about what I'm going to see? My last ultrasound was at 7 weeks 😍😍

Woke up outta my sleep in crazy pain and to my 4 year old all under me and to my husband saying is Loyal here yet I'm getting nervous cause that man have always been head on to when his kids coming out an playing the game and guess what that's what's going on now I'm ready for baby boy but then again I am not. My 4 year old is literally walking every where I walk talking about I'ma stay with you mama even when I go to the br I'm starting to feel sick to my stomach......

Birth Plan Rant

I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have an unmedicated birth (this is my first baby). What annoys me is when I say that I'm going to TRY my hardest to have a natural and unmedicated birth people always feel the need to say that I'm crazy or that I'm going to change my mind when I get in that position. Or that epidurals are the best. I do realize that plans change, but why can't people be supportive and encouraging?