come to find out we do the paternity test on January 11...I'm glad things are moving forward and getting close to getting the child support started...but I'm terrified to see my son's father again...I haven't seen him since I told him I was pregnant...it's been almost a year...im scared I won't be able to look at him without crying...I'm scared I'll just fall to pieces...I loved that man with everything I had and he threw me and my son away like we were trash...I waited for him throughout almost my entire pregnancy waiting for him to come back and want to make things right and it never happened...I'm so terrified to see him again