Lot going on today...sick as a dog, woke with a fever...my mom got out of surgery, and brother…

Lot going on today...sick as a dog, woke with a fever...my mom got out of surgery, and brother called saying that the man we grew up with as a father died. Not sure what cause of death was yet. Not sure what to feel, got a lot of emotions running through my mind...but don't feel sorry for me, I mourned his loss long ago, and he does not deserve my grief now for the abuse he put me through as a child.