Here's my story: I'm Amanda, I'm 23 (24 in a few days), I'm married to the love of my life and we have a beautiful almost 11 month old daughter Mieke, and two angel babies, Riley Rayne (lost in early pregnancy August 9, 2015) and Charles Scott Jr. A.K.A. J.R. (lost in early pregnancy September 22, 2015) Riley was a planned pregnancy, J.R. was a joyful surprise. My husband and I have been through a lot together, his dad passed away the year before we started dating, and then my dad passed away when I was 5 months pregnant with our daughter. Our daughter was born full term on January 27, 2015 weighing 4lbs. 7oz. via emergency c-section. When she was two weeks old she was diagnosed with a congenital heart defect called tetralogy of fallot which is fatal if left unrepaired. The months and days following her diagnosis were tough on me both mentally, and emotionally...because of her defect for the fist two months we were required to have a 24 hour watch on her to insure she didn't turn blue on us..my husband and I slept in four hour shifts once a day...and then once he had to go back to work I had to handle all of it myself...I ended up having to call my dad a quite a few times just so I could sleep. I sank into postpartum depression, I just wanted to walk away from it all (although I never did or would)...not only did we have to keep watch over her but we were also required to stay at home and keep her out of public for fear of her getting sick, the isolation continued for seven months...I only left the house twice to go to church and twice to go grocery shopping, unless we left for her doctor appointment 200 miles away, which happened monthly....I felt like I was going crazy, the four walls broke me down...but in everything there is a silver lining, my daughter had her open heart surgery at 6 months old on August 11, 2015, and since September we have been out of isolation...I can honestly say I no longer feel crazy...and I now have a happy, healthy little girl who will celebrate her 1st birthday next month...we are so blessed even with tragedy God has seen us through...sorry for it being so long thanks for reading...more pictures will be in comments if I can figure out how to do it, I'm new here lol.