trying to have a baby and failing to get pregnant has got to be one of the hardest things to go through. I can deal with childbirth, and abuse. but your own body failing to do something that is natural is devastating. sometimes I wonder if I'm not a good enough person. like if this is payback for all the damage I've done. I'm forced to watch everyone else's family grow. I'm forced to see parents have kids only to use them as a meal ticket. everything I do is to make sure my son is happy and healthy. all I ask is to give him a little sister or a brother. he can't grow up alone. one day mom and dad will be gone and my son will have no one because his mother can't give him a sibling. I Love him so much.