I should be happy and excited that my baby boy is almost here but I'm not. With my daughter I was independent and worked 2 jobs while pregnant and after she was born. I didn't ask for anything or want for anything. But with this pregnancy I can't work anymore so I dont have access to my OWN money. My SO is giving me money to get presents for my daughter and pretty much lets me get what we need. However, it's really depressing having to ask for money for stuff :( I feel like I'm being monitored all of the time. To top it off he keeps telling me stuff he wants for Christmas like I have my own money to get him something?!! Made me cry today bc it depressed me to know I can't get him anything technically from me. I even said to him "with what money?" and he just says " well you asked what I wanted so Im telling you" Idk what to do.