I know that this might be weird to say.. but tonight I've been wondering if God thinks I'm a good…

I know that this might be weird to say.. but tonight I've been wondering if God thinks I'm a good mom... I look at my son and wonder if I'm even good enough to be his mom. he is so special to me and means everything to me. I wish I could ask him if he loves me as much as I love him. . I mean i can but I wouldn't get an answer.. he is so precious and perfect. The love I have for my child is unexplainable. I wish my husband could feel what I'm feeling with our child.. he doesn't quite understand why I'm so protective. but of he felt what I feel now he would understand. he knows the world is turning to crap. but he doesn't understand the urge I get to protect our newborn little boy from every little thing. I hate the fact that we live with people who vape and dont care that I have said I dont want my son inhaling that. I dont care if it has nicotine or not. I dont want him breathing that in. I want our own place so that I can seriously choose what's around Elliott. I love him so much. ! being a mom is the best thing that's ever happened to me. he is a huge blessing. <3