I hate this feeling of despair I've been feeling. The craziest scariest thoughts pop in my head. I cry at a drop of hat for no reason whatsoever, it comes out of nowhere and hits me like a ton of bricks! I feel so lost and sad, i know i should be happy at this time in my life bcuz I have my little girl in my arms but I can't stop crying and the feeling of despair I have won't go away.