I hate feeling depressed. everyone I know is getting pregnant. especially people who either don't deserve to be mother because their to into drugs or people who arent even ready to be parents. and it kills me. it's kills me more then anything. I look at this little giraffe. that plays a melody. the same exact toy that I had as a baby. and same exact melody. and it kills me and makes my heart ache that I don't have a child to give that memory to, to pass on :/