Ugh do I have this situation, I work at the hospital where I am going to deliver and I hate it. I…

Ugh do I have this situation, I work at the hospital where I am going to deliver and I hate it. I don't like that fact that everyone I know is going to be up in my vagina and if I cry or yell out in pain I don't want everyone that I work with to hear that and judge me.. I work with them I know their thoughts on it.. I could go to a bigger hospital that it an hour away but it's away from all of my family and I don't want to come back and be questioned on why I didn't have my baby here.. I don't care if the Dr I've been seeing is there or not I don't know her well and she's rushed every appointment that I've had with her. Any thoughts? Should I be more comfortable or just suck it up because even though it's shitty it would just so much easier?