Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

For all the mommas waiting, here he is😍 sorry i had him at 4:44 AM so ive been super exhausted.

so I'm being induced so he will be here next week. he's measuring smaller . I'm 37 weeks but he's measuring 35 weeks . 😔 I'm not ready for him yet . he doesn't even have his bed yet. so that means he's going to be a preemie , I hope he doesn't stay in the nicu. on top of all that went on today smh. you know he had the nerve to call me a failure ? pssh.

He's here was born at 10:17 am 7 pounds 8 oz 20 an a half inches long. But sad news he got transferred to another hospital because he lost oxygen to his brain and I labored for to long so we both got an infection had to treat with antibiotics. And was born with a temp of 102.. So far he's doing good but they wanna monitor him for 72 hours everyone pray for him

Soooo.... Tried Noah on some baby rice today (he's 4 months next week) as he's been showing signs that he's ready. Wasn't expecting him to be that interested but he loves it! Doesn't spit ant out and every mouthful leaves him with a huge smile!