Realized that the last month Of My pregnancy, I have been a crazed laugher. All I do is laugh about everything. I think I make my boyfriends Day though because I'm not uptight and serious.
Back in high school i was so much fun to be around and was just real chill and relaxed.
Then jealousy and rage came across me. So hopefully this pregnancy has made him fall more in love with me since ive been letting lose and seem to be my old old self, the one he First fell in love with. My recent self was a nightmare. I hope I don't go back to that.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Literally have no friends or pt people to text haha every friend turned their backs on me or just don't get my pregnancy or SO issues and I kudu keep to myself. 🙄
I also recently found out that I can't take maternity leave only having been at my job since March... I must put in my two weeks when I am ready, and be completely rehired back after baby and recovery from second c section 😰😰😰😰 I'm so worried. What if they don't hire me back, and I have a two year old and an infant and no job. I am terrified about this
*UPDATE*
Ladiessssss so I was debating on sharing this information as it means a lot to me so at my anatomy appointment they are referring me to get a second more detailed sonogram specifically for the babies heart. They are telling me that my babies heart is undelvoped on the left side and that it is possible that she will need heart surgery after i deliver. There sending me to a whole nother hospital and the damn doctor even said that i might wanna consider ending my pregnancy 😩 smh all this ...
my baby daddy punched me in my nose twice. All because the phone he has I GAVE IT TO HIM! Its MyOld Phone And he been talking to this girl and so i said give me my phone back! I didnt give it to you for that reason. And i got it and he was trying to take it back and he hit me .
I'm a nightmare now and no one can stand me Lol Hopefully I'll go back