My older brother and I had a tough childhood because we always had babysitters who treated us bad…

My older brother and I had a tough childhood because we always had babysitters who treated us bad and now that i became a mom i dont even trust my MIL to watch my baby the only person I would let watch him would be my mom but I even have trouble leaving him with her and I really want to make money from home has anybody done surveys online and has actually gotten paid for doing them?