thank you girls! it's nice to know I'm not alone. thanks for the encouragement and support. @calupo1201 @iheartriley @nanamariexmarchgirl

@mrsshove, I know how you feel. I have gone through some bad situations that went on for about 2 years. I don't think I wouldn't have been able to get through it all without me telling my husband. it's amazing that he can love me knowing what happened.and that is what helped me get through it.

write a letter to your ex boyfriend, put all your feelings in the letter... let him know how it still effect you till this day, curse him out.. say whatever you want in the letter.. then rip it up or burn it. I had a similar situation and this was one ways I got over it

Ive been taken advantage of multipul tine throughout my life the worst was when i had my viginity taken at 13. There are really good therapy centers there are also counsolurs and well it will take time and a lot of patience its did for me. I had been so distraght i had tried to kill myself more than once and had tried to cut off my breasts literally. its not easy and for some it takes months to years to feel better. There are a lot of helpful groups , facilities and such just find some in your area. try bonding by doing things together to bulid more trust and comfort. may be slow and frusterating but in the end its worth it. i know it was for me i have a wonderful husband.

he doesn't know it was right around this time, but any time he touches me it brings up bad memories. I don't know how to tell him that. he knows a little bit, but I just can't talk about everything @calupo1201

Does your husband know? Maybe telling him how you feel will be a step to heal.