it is physically exhausting @megbaby07 and it is completely debilitating for me

I think it might be too. Hopefully at least. Either way I don't want to deal with the feeing again. It's truly exhausting. @bella91

well mama there's a HIPA ACT which will not allow ur dr. to tell your mom unless u are a minor or have signed for her to speak with ur dr.

@megbaby07 totally with u

@megbaby07, I've been feeling like that a lot lately too. I think it's normal because before pregnancy I had a handle on all of this and now it's like it's that much more intense. it's got to be hormones.

I've been telling myself that for two days.. And I feel like a hopeless case.. Is that normal? Like I'm never going to get better

@megbaby07, it's an addiction like all the rest. It will forever sneak into our thoughts every once in a while. It sucks and it's scary. I know it'll pass but it's like this numbness has stayed and progressed a little too much for my liking. I guess it really is time to stop trying to handle this by myself.

Yeah I smoked those too. And self harm is something we can't allow. I still have those thoughts knowing I wouldn't even attempt one again. But I just hate those things still feel like they are winning. And slipping is no fun. Like an edge where you try to balance but one slight wind change is going to throw it all out. I wish things were a lot easier...

@yahuahsdaughter, Thank you for your suggestions :)

@megbaby07, I have the same concerns about therapy and medication. I usually smoked cigarettes to help but I can't do that while I'm pregnant and I decided to give it up after the baby too. I used to ride my bike everywhere but now I would just fall over from exhaustion. I do want to learn MMA and go to the gym, but again, too much physical activity. Before I got pregnant I did relapse on self harm but that is a huge no no. It's hard. It's like I'm running into a brick wall. If I talk to anyone about the situation my mom freaks out and accuses me of telling people lies about her. I do the shower thing and it does help generally but I don't like pissing my dad off about how much water I use. We will get through this, I'm sure. I just gave to get a grip first. I'm slipping and I'm scaring myself.

i also feel like thia some days. what helps me is to get up and do something around the house, if i have to cry to let it out its helpful. keeping it in hurts you more. also prayer helps me ask God to give you strength and help you heal. listening to uplifting gospel music in the background helps me tremendously and also watching hopeful inspiring movies on youtube

Im at that point too, and it's a hard place to be. Especially when people keep telling you that you have to be strong for the baby and you have the strength to get past this and that's even more pressure on your depression that they don't realize is happening. Yes they are trying to help but you know that you need to be strong and you have a beautiful situation inside you but that doesn't mean you're not hurting. I'm finally to a point where I'm going to go see a therapist, but have been putting it off because I'm afraid of telling someone else how I feel because to me they just throw medicine at you and tell you to try it for a month or so and see how it goes. Being pregnant I can't do the things that normally help me, example I smoked weed. That's what kept my anxiety down. Right now I would say maybe talking to someone can help. And one thing I've found that helped in with mine I feel like all the problems around me and the thoughts are suffocating me and I lose it, so I jump in a shower and I sit here while the water runs over me, crying if I need too, but too me if feels like it washes all the stress and thoughts and negativity away long enough that I can breathe. You could always try that, I'm sorry this is happening to you, I know it truly sucks. I really hope things get better. This is probably long but your the first person I think that has actually understood the exact feeling I am feeling. But I guess we will get though this together 🙂

Thank you @bella91 there is just also the issue of my mom finding out if I tell them I am Depressed. If she finds out she will use it against me. There is just so many factors. I'm trying my best. I really am.

I was scared too but they do help. they offered me meds. I refused because it's a personal decision ( I do not judge anyone who takes them if they need them during pregnancy ) it's a personal choice. but don't be afraid he/she has heard much worse I am sure

@bella91, @millieesue thank you guys for your support as well

@sarahemccormick, been battling it for a long while too. I'm scared to report it to my doctor. I used to be on so much medication, and I have gotten so much better since then. I don't want anyone to doubt me again and I don't want court to look at me like I'm a bad mom if the babies dad tries to take me. All of my "coping" mechanisms are either too much physically or they are unhealthy and I cannot do them anymore. I'm in that state where your just numb to everything so it's hard to even find the will to try new things to help cope. Thank you for your advice though. I have an appointment Friday; I guess it's time to talk about this.

@sarahemccormick, I had no idea staying away from gluten helped battle depression. I too have suffered since I was young with clinical as well as PTSD. thanks for your insight

I'm sorry I don't have many suggestions, I'm pretty bad at this my mother tells me to keep moving but I can't seem to. it's like I'll get motivation for literally 2 minutes and it's gone. I am here though to talk if you need to vent. I did have someone suggest giving myself ample amount of time to feel sad, cry or what not and that seems to work. like I'm a huge crier when I'm depressed I mean I could stay in bed all day and not even shower. it's bad. but I give myself time to cry like 15 20 minutes and then I say okay after this you're gtg get up and do something even if it's shower or wash your face you will get up.

First things first, I would definitely report this to your doctor as quickly as possible. Pregnancy depression, if untreatd, can and will turn into postpartum depression once the baby is born - and as we all know, this can be detrimental. There are counselors who specialize in working with pregnant women and do a fantastic job. Idk if they have Salus Care in Okeechobee but if not, your doctor can write you a referral. I really sympathize with what you're going through - I've battled depression from the time I was 12. I really hope you can find ways to cope. Try some soothing music, like Enya and other new age genre artists, and meditation and yoga. It does help. Also, walking helps - and staying away from gluten helps as well.

I would talk to your doctor and see if there is anything he can give you to help. I hope you get to feeling better and all of your interests come back!

my shower is Saturday and everyone seems more excited than me.

omg I feel the same exact way!!!!!!!!