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Now that I have 1 week left until I get induced. I realize that I'm not ready. Yea he has sooooo much things,yeahhhhh he…

Now that I have 1 week left until I get induced.

I realize that I'm not ready. Yea he has sooooo much things,yeahhhhh he has his own room fully furnished, yeahhhh he has a great father with great income. , an yea family is more ready than me. But that don't make u ready.

I'm scared. I'm literally terrified .. He doesn't know this, but I hope I can be the best parent .. I don't want him to know what it means to stress. I don't want him to know what it means to be hungry .... Or to come home an the lights are off.. To be scared of men that came around because I was the target to be touched💔💔💔... To run away , because people picking on him. Or to not have the things he need going to school, wearing hand me downs, an raggedy shoes😕..

because when I was a child I was less fortunate of things.

I want the best for him. An now that I'm thinking about it..

It makes me not even wanna get induced anymore.

Mommies, don't rush it. Let them come when they are ready.

It will give u time to seriously prepare. Not buy things, but set your mind on BEING A MOTHER.

Good night 😘

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?

@itsamemario, you deleted your post before I could hit send but this is my comment: I don’t know if this answers your…

@itsamemario, you deleted your post before I could hit send but this is my comment: I don’t know if this answers your question but this is my answer. My son is 7 and he knows race and color. Why? Because he himself comes from a family that is multi racial and because he has already experienced racism. I also believe as his mother it’s my job to teach him color and the cold hard truth about society. He knows what’s going on in this world. I’d be hurting him if I allowed him to blindly walk outside without this information. Children of color are being targeted and killed too. It’s not just adults. I let my son know we treat everyone equally and with respect. I let him know that we love everyone for their differences. In every aspect. Color, race, ethnicity, religion, sexual preference we love everyone.

Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my…

Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Who else has financial issues within their relationship?? Or am I just lucky 🙄🙄

Who else has financial issues within their relationship?? Or am I just lucky 🙄🙄 Not sure if I'm being just mean or what. But my SO used $160 from me this morning. I gave him my bank card because he needed $60 to get material for work. His boss was going to give it back to him at the end of the day. So instead of $60 he took out $160. Which I was a little pissed. (One of the reasons I just can't let him use my card. I have to go get the money from the atm myself if I'm giving it to him) then, tonight he asked for $20 incase his boss didn't give it to him. So I gave him my card not even thinking because I had kids running around me. I asked if he could pick up a few things that were out of and told him he could use my card if he has too. And I even told him not to get the expensive brands or anything m generic is fine. So he does. But when he does he decides to go Easter shopping for the kids. (Not sure if he used to my card or not) but if he did, I'd be even more pissed. He knows I have bills to pay on top of giving my son's school money that I owe them. He goes to a private school and I haven't paid in 5 months. It's towards the end of school now so I need to pay it. He knows this month I am extremely tight because of the school, im already in debt and my credit score sucks. I have been trying not to get in more debt and actually fix my credit. I'm so frustrated. It's like we have different priorities and different ideas on this. I feel like I'm completely drowning!!

So its been a long time since I've been on here. So much has happened. I don't know if I need to vent or what but I'm so…

So its been a long time since I've been on here. So much has happened. I don't know if I need to vent or what but I'm so sick of being called a rapes by my own husband because he has sex apnea and every once in a while it happens and i don't know what is happening until he has already inside me and almost about to cum. Every time I don't stop him and wake him up from the act I get called a rapist and told he will call the police and have me arrested for rape and throwing in jail. When it first started happening I had known clue that it happened. Hell he never brought it up until it happened. At first he didn't have a problem with it happened but the last two years it has changed hell our lives and marriage has changed after i cheating on him. I have been trying to find a way to make things better for us but nothing i do helps. I don't think we will ever get passed it.I have suggested we go to counseling anything to help but he says no. We are about to have our 6th child together. 4 before I cheated and 2 after. I know that us having 2 more kids is not the best thing we needed but it happened and I love everyone of my children. I have told him that we need to get a divorce and he says ok but i can't have any one of our children so I continue to stay praying everyday that things will be better and it doesn't. Im at my wit's end. Im halfway out the door and half in. Im not losing or leaving my children with him. Don't get me wrong hes a great dad. And he was a great husband. I just don't know what to do or say or anything anymore more maybe yall moms can help or give me some advice.