Getting all in my feelings tonight. Reality is starting to kick in having a baby alone and moving…

Getting all in my feelings tonight. Reality is starting to kick in having a baby alone and moving somewhere strange to me etc... It's going to be so hard being away from him and not seeing him or sleeping next to him every night... And then having to see him when he comes to see the baby isn't going to be any easier.. I swear I am way to in love with him still... I asked for one night just to forget everything and pretend it's all okay. I hope I don't regret it. He is so good to me I really don't deserve him so letting him go is the right thing to do.. I just want him to be happy.