I'm so hurt. all day yesterday and evening I told the hubby I wanted some intimate one on one time…

I'm so hurt. all day yesterday and evening I told the hubby I wanted some intimate one on one time with him. I told him I didn't want sex I just wanted to cuddle and watch a movie... he decided to bbq for 3 hours and drink with the new neighbor and when 9 rolls around he's ready to spend time with me and wanted sex. Anytime I ask for sex he says no... but when he drinks he wants it but only to take care of his needs... so I said no N went to bed, mind u I had to get up at 5:45 for work.... now today he's been pushing me away and acting like feelings don't matter....