Just woke up and didn't even remember falling asleep lol since its 1:30am, I'm 8dpo now. I just am sitting here and…

Just woke up and didn't even remember falling asleep lol since its 1:30am, I'm 8dpo now. I just am sitting here and hoping all these things I'm feeling are actually something. I know the mind can make up symptoms but I don't think mine is making all of these haha l just...I'm optimistic that next Friday (when I am testing), that I will see these two little lines. That after trying amd praying and wishing and hoping, that I can know life is inside of me...idk...these are my thoughts at 1am lol