(Just a deep morning thought)..........

Learning to cope with changes is so hard especially when it's all you knew and made into a habit. Since this pregnancy I have quit smoking. I went cold turkey. Not because I wanted too but that's what this baby forced me too. Believe me I am not perfect and I won't sugar coat anything about myself. I was figuring I wasn't going to change a thing about myself when I found out I was pregnant. Now I don't have a choice. This pregnancy is changing me. I'm eating foods I never thought I'd eat. I acting crazy like never before and I've slowed down tremendously. One change that is hard to describe is that feeling that came across me when I saw the sonogram of a kicking baby. How at first I figured it would be easy as soon as the baby is born, I'd find a babysitter and go back to work quick. Unfortunately, my thoughts are not so quick to make about it and I've developed a feeling of protection for that little kicking baby. I don't know if I could let someone else do a second of what my motherly instincts is telling me.