I feel so out of it today, so out of shape, so lethargic and just not myself. So out of energy, I can just lay down and feel sorry for myself all day long.

I'm so ready to feel better. I'm not sure I remember how to feel good and rested and ready to go. Getting dressed is a workout. I'm surprised I am not 300 pounds by now, but that's how I feel. So so so heavy, it's hard to move around. I can just cry typing this. I'm not use to all this and I'm not handling myself good at all. I just want to cry.