there is absolutely no explaining the love you have for your children. my baby girl has had to lay…

there is absolutely no explaining the love you have for your children. my baby girl has had to lay under the bilirubin lights for hours now and I have cried so many times over silly things. more than likely she will be perfectly fine and this will never have an effect on her life. but one thing I have already learned about my daughter is that she hates being naked. she doesn't cry much but when she does it's when someone is changing her clothes or her diaper. and she is required to be naked except for a diaper under these lights. she is used to it now but when we first put her under the lights I started crying right along with her and it was because my baby had to be uncomfortable. and since then I have cried and cried because breast feeding isn't going great yet because my milk hasn't come in. just the colostrum. and with her having jaundice breast milk is the best thing for her. and it's my job to provide it for her. but I haven't been doing well. and I feel like a bad mommy for it. I just want my baby to be better so I can hold her and love on her again. I just want my healthy happy baby back