going through this beginning stages of birth are tough... I'm super emotional about being alone .... how am I gonna get through birth without my BD... I know he wouldn't have been much of an emotional support but being totally abandoned is pretty fucked up.
Stay strong and just put all your energy into your baby. It'll get easier over time.
that is really not cool but at least you get to enjoy every minute with the baby when birth comes and he gets to miss out. He's the one getting the short end of the stick pancakes, not you. Head up honey. :)
Stay strong my friend you got this